LIVE FOREVER?
no thank you!
Dearest Seekers,
My eldest graduated college this week and will officially make New York home to start her life. One of those full circle moments that cracks you open with and without warning. You know it’s coming but it still forces a reckoning anyway.
Not with grief. With something older. A question that surfaces every time life marks itself : what the hell am I actually doing here? What do I want for me, deeply?
There is so much pressure on women, particularly here in America, to “appear” a certain way. To inject and supplement and optimise the surface while the inside quietly starves. Social media sells inadequacy with a wellness filter on top. It’s insulting. And it’s destroying our life force. Can I just eat an organic f**king apple and be done with it? I find this particular madness so exhausting. And no, please god, don’t employ a hollowed-out celebrity to sell me a Brancusi. It’s nuts!
Because none of this touches the actual question. The external has very little to do with what your SOUL is calling you toward. Funnily enough, mine has never once actually mentioned my appearance.
And cryogenic lunatics! I don’t want to live forever. I genuinely don’t. I believe in the soul eternal. So I just want to live this one effectively. I want to answer the call I was given rather than manage it politely from a safe distance. My soul is relentless. It always has been.
There’s a line in that Oasis song, you know the one, that lands differently now. Not because I want to live forever. Because I want to live so fully in the time I have that I don’t have to come back and repeat these particular lessons. Maybe next time I’ll get a new set of instructions. Or another planet.
The Buddhists would call this not accumulating karma. I just call it: I don’t wanna waste it.
And when these benchmark moments arrive - graduations, endings, beginnings, the ordinary Monday morning that quietly rearranges everything does do one useful thing. They pull you back to the only question that matters.
Who are you, underneath all the doing? Why are you here?
This week in breathwork and in Sunday’s group, we’re sitting with that. Not fixing it. Listening deeply inside. Making now count. That’s the only forever any of us actually has.
Come breathe. And go inside with me.
Sunday May 24 online 12pm PST 3pm EST 9pm Uk
And in person at my Santa Monica studio on Monday 25th May 7.30 pm
KUNDALINI ACTIVATION PRACTICE Sunday May 24th 2-4pm Dive deep Inside. No doing. Just surrendering.
With love,
Emma
I will add one more note here in reference to this song ….and dear God if you are listening, if I am going to fly around as much as I am, I want to do it lying down…
Well said! 😘
ThanKyou kim 😘